The Lonely One~

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Haiz, still in the crucial zone/time... Really miss the time of coaching... How come, I don't get to enjoy the situation that I should despite giving so much? Providing so much and hard for the battalion, now instead of enjoying my ORD time, trouble free, relax, preparing for after ORD stuffs and also enjoy clearing my off and leave as well as doing what I want to do much, I am really stuck in this shitty delima. Another weekend that I gave away my class again. Really miss the time of coaching. initially I can also start my own swim classes. However, due to this case, I don't dare to start. Took up quite a number of kayak courses, but I can't give a 100% assurance of my attendance yet due to my this issue.

Hope that this issue can really drag all the way till I ORD. So that even for the ORD parade, I could also enjoy myself and also book out after the parade. A really happy ORD...

Pls......

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

4:09 PM

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Monday, May 4, 2015

So what's after final field training? Instead of being a norm like other NSF, being in the ORD mood, planning what they want to do after ORD, clearing off/leave now, feeling happy, enjoying...

Unlike me, I am stuck in a situation of ORD but not happy. Being sad, awaiting/wondering what's the punishment that I will be receiving. Indeed, past month is a really bad month for me.

Firstly, I am currently pending and waiting for punishment of damaging a weapon despite it isn't entire my fault. If the weapon wasn't place there, I would not have get involved in such a big case. On the other hand, if I were to dismount to ground guide, this shit should not happen. No point blaming here and there. weapon was damage not on deliberate, I am the one that need to face the punishment severally. 14 days of SOL or DB. But being honest, the weapon was really at my blind spot, how can I spot it? Well, about another 10 days of my off/leave gonna to get eaten up again. :( In the past, working so hard, to get things progress well, can't believe that this is the outcome.

Secondly, this month should be the month whereby my uni interview result be out. I don't feel that I will get a placing as I didn't really perform well in the interview. :(

Thirdly, in army, what is the point of putting in effort? Coming back despite on my leave to carry on to prepare what is needed for upcoming training. Off was being eaten away.

Fourthly, now my usage permit application also facing some issue. Previously, it was stated that standard is able. Now, they say need to include CPR and AED or at least a CPR. I need to fork out another sum of cash to get this done again? Of so many people, only mine then they realize that there's loop hole and won't clear me till I produce the certificate.

Fifthly, being a soldier, it is a norm to bring along the personal weapon when heading out in the field. This thing, my driver will also forget and need me to remind him. Next, NVD, he forgot to draw. Also need me to remind him? After BOS was done, log book need to update, also need me to remind him? During these 2 weeks of back to back field training, he really pressing me to my limit.

I am really tired about all these shit that are happening. Even having off, I am still being bother with what happening in camp. Can I really tank for another 1 month plus? Will my luck start to change this month? I don't know. Can only hope for the best.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

3:19 PM

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Sunday, October 27, 2013

Once again back to reality that, what is the reality about? It's time to book in again!

Now understand how does all those NSF feel. Initially I thought it is ok. But now, I feel no. I can feel that life as a civilian is too short. Starting to miss my time as a student, as a person waiting to enlist. Don't really like NS life much as too much restriction. I really like life that is more filled with excitement. But now, I am still at the training phases of my NS. It should be naturally that I thought that way. Hopefully, after I go my rank, things will be better, my thought will be better as I am really used to the life of leading and leading rather than as a trainee.

Out of the tough road, there will be a light at the exit. I know that the route now is tough, there are things that I dislike along the process. However, if I really pass through it once, the light will be shinning at the exit.

JIA YOU YI LONG ;)

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

7:55 PM

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Sunday, October 20, 2013

After 2 months of BMTC + 1 week blocked leave, tomorrow (21-October-2013) will be the start of my second chapter of army life.

Will be booking into Specialist Command School (SCS). Although a bit disappointed that did not manage to get into Officer Cadet School(CS), but I also feel happy or even happy to get into SCS. Even though before enlist, I am aiming for OCS. However, coming to the end of BMTC, I start to have dilemma of going to OCS or not or SCS is just enough or even just want to be a man. This dilemma been with me until the result was released and I felt really happy to go into SCS. Reasons being that I was being told that it will not be so tough which means that I will have more time to go and get some external course such as:
(1) Swim-safer course
(2) Windsurfing course
(3) Kayaking instructor level 2 (hopefully)
(4) River paddling experience
(5) Life-Saving Instructor Attachment
(6) Go for more top rope climbing
(7) Top rope climbing instructor
(8) Personal development through reading books

But well, all that's are what I hope. But expect there bound to be surprises happened along the way and I shall see how. but hopefully, things will really be smooth and I can get extreme busy during every single minute and seconds.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

9:59 PM

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Monday, June 10, 2013

Bringing the feeling of sadness to update the blog. 4 days ago, Penny, Mari and Tim came over to Singapore for holiday. Today is their last day and will be flying back to Hong Kong in about 4 to 5 hours time. Seeing them here, starting to miss my time in Hong Kong with them. I am really enjoying a lot. Spending the whole of yesterday (9-June-2013) with them and spent quite a lot but I just happy spending it.

Today morning although I am having class, but I am not really in the state of mood to have the class. People from Hong Kong really change my mind set a bit more. Telling me, it's time to enjoy, just spend. After lesson, back home, look at my Facebook, the first thing that I look is my time in Hong Kong. Sometime really feel like dropping down of my tear due to the miss over there. There is a song sang by Raymond Lum which I like it a lot. It is a TVB ending theme which I am catching it when I am in Hong Kong!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7U_mR7X764

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

12:40 PM

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Sunday, June 9, 2013

Dear Diary,

Finally today is the day. 3 years of endurance just for this 1 day. During the 3 years, there are obstacles that build me up as well as change my thought. Being a very workerholic guy and result orientated guy, I think that I had change to a more friend orientated guy and not that result oriented guy. Thanks to who? My course mate who are with me throughout the past few years. Being a more friend oriented person is a very big changes as I am a person with high ego yet now able to put it down a little and join my friends.

During the 3 years, I may not have achieved a lot in school academic but I am definitely assure that I have achieve a lot out of school which are the external certification and personal growth. But really, without knowing, 3 years just pass in a blink of eye without knowing.

Besides my course peers that makes a change in me, my working site (Swim Concierge) had change a lot. Through them, I realize the fun and joy of meeting up with friends for meal. After everyday of coaching, we will all wait for one another to go for dinner. Still remember that I get into this company due to life-guard. After my GCE O Level, I take up life-saving intending to work as a Life-guard for my part time job when I was in poly. However, after getting my BM, I submit all my application for the job position of part time life-guard under Singapore Sport Council. However, during the period of waiting, I am jobless and just now Swim Concierge was looking for a life-guard while my initial life-saving partner intend to cover their shift for the day yet, he couldn't make it which he refer to me and I decide to take it after some consideration. While covering the shift, I talked to the boss while I am on duty. From here, indicating to him my interest to teach swimming and he actually pull me in to coach under his company. That's how my swimming coach life started. Until today, I had been with the company for about 2 years. In the 2 years, things have been up and down for me in the company which slowly build up to who I am today. Without knowing the reason, from the perception of coaching because of higher pay change to a more student task coach. Now slowly becoming a person that's actually start to read more.

What's my fate with the company in the future? I also don't know as my return from Hong Kong for my school internship had slowly start to pull my relationship with the school more apart.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

12:18 AM

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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Some much thing that I will want to reflect on myself and improve on myself. But whenever I started to write it here, I tends to forget everything or what to write :(

Being a professionalism coach --> What is a professionalism as a coach to me? --> How professional I am as a coach? --> I think there are more things that I know that I still can improve and work on it. Definitely, a lot a lot of improvement that I can work on. Starting to realize that regularly improvement can be done through self-reflection. It's not about reading to improve one. It is not through always sharing to shows that one is professionalism enough. But constantly reflection is still the key.

Working on my method of instruction is a necessary for me.
Every child have their way of interaction. Always being open to the child is important
Stop gossiping about one another should be better?
Be patient
Being more responsible
And many more

Relationship, --> What is love? I am so confused about it.

There are so many things running through my mind. My work as a coach... My relationship status... My future plan although seeing that there are a lot of excitement... But I don't know what to do next! Excusing had been used by me!

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

2:50 PM

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